God help me! :'(

Dear God, I am having problem with my Physics right now Lord. I am stressed out already because I wasn't able to understand! Lord, please help me because I am having my Physics paper this coming Friday and I am not yet ready! Lord, in Jesus Christ name I pray! :(

Grr~! Disappointed with the lecture notes! So unreliable! Lack of information! I am going to the library later! MUST MUST MUST! If I want God to help me, I have to help myself first!! Joener fighting!!!!

:'(

Nothing much too post today, really. Should I describe my day first? Okay, first, woke up at maybe 10am, and then went to the library to finish structural geology project. I did it very rushing, so I'm guessing the marks given will be also "rushing". Ah, the heck with it. I'm tired of it. Let the marks be. :P But, I am a bit disappointed with my Korean oral. I should have done better actually, but I am too nervous at that time. Never mind, I'll try harder next time. Well, finished my KAB assignment today. Phew, what a relief! Feels like a burden is gone, but still, there is one more burden to get rid of, basic geology lab exam. Grr, totally I am a bit pissed off with this exam. Gah, can't wait for it to end! Also, a bit sad today. Why? I saw Valerie's post, tomorrow (later morning) will be her last lecture in UMS. Oh my, she's really leaving. I don't seem to understand why I am sad that she's leaving, but maybe it is because I love her as my biological sister. She's one of Lifefire members that I am close with other than Wen. When I am with her, I really can feel a love from a sister. Huhu~ I guess after this I can't experience the same atmosphere during Lifefire weekly gathering as usual. Hmmmm~ Never mind. I believe that she won't abandon Lifefire! :3 come anytime okay sis? Goin to miss you! :')

“I don’t want to study anymore, I just want to do God’s mission”

Haha! Indeed, last night during the Lifeline gathering at Sacred Heart Parish Centre, Princess Yvonne said that to us. Wow, what a coincidence! Truly, I’ve been thinking of this matter ever since I came back from ER2012! I even skipped my midterm exam you know! I was thinking of abandoning my studies altogether! Phew! Thank God that He uses our princess to tell us about this. Our princess said that exactly, to abandon everything for God’s mission sake! Then she told us, DO NOT abandon your studies now! Finish your degree first! Finish what you have started! I guess this come from over-burning desires in our hearts that we can’t even think straight anymore. I am sure that God Himself do not want to see His children abandoned their studies recklessly, aight? I am sure and believe that God wanted us to be successful in our studies, and after that we can continue doing His calling! Yes! That’s it! Thank God for using Princess Yvonne to tell us this! I have been wondering about this thing ever since I came back to KK! I even think of giving up everything! How reckless! Grr~ In the Bible, “Love God with all your heart, your mind and your soul”. How do I interpret them? Well, I see them as loving God with all my heart is by believing in Him and faithful to Him. AND, your mind! I can love God and glorify Him with my studies, right? I can show my love towards God with my performance in my studies, right? And through soul, well obviously through praising and worshiping Him sincerely, my doings towards others, kan3? Hahaha. I now have figured it out. Okay, I will now balance my studies and my callings! I can’t give up that easily! I have Jesus Christ beside me all the time! He will help me in everything! Oh yes! Remember, finish study first! Then continue 100% with God’s mission for us! Not that I am saying that we should pause God’s calling as for the time being, NO, that’s not it. I mean, start at small scale and rate first, gain experience and knowledge, then when the time has come, use it all out in serving His purposes, right? 알았지? Hahaha! Yes, that’s what I’m going to do now! Start serving others at small scale, e.g; Lifefire family! Yippie! I am so happy! Now struggle back with studies! :3 Thank You Daddy God!

it is not me who live, but Christ who lives in me

Crowning of New Servants! :)

Shalom readers! Last night is the 6th Anniversary of our Lifefire ministry! Yeah! Thank God it went well. Together with Geraldine, we became MC for the night. Quite awkward for me since it was my first time. Well, yeah noob. Haha. But Thank God again, I manage to did a good job I guess. Hohoho. This is the final year of us with two most lovely princesses in the world, Yvonne and Valerie! <3 Truthfully, I am really sad that they are leaving already. Especially sis Valerie, the one I reckon as my sister! :') Experiences together with you was awesome and 대박!! I am surely going to miss you after this! :'( Can't believe I am crying while typing this. Huhu. Really a sad thing for me that both of them are leaving the ministry to us. Sis Yvonne! Thanks for being such a great leader and a great coordinator! 5 star rating la u~ :) I hope that both of you will still be able to present for Lifefire weekly gathering! Haish. It is not going to be the same anymore. Oh God, I pray and ask from You, may You keep them strong in their faith and in their callings Lord! Guide and lead them in everything they do Lord. For You have promised us through Jeremiah 29:11, give them the best Lord! Help them to serve Your purposes Lord! :) Protect them Lord, help them to be wise in their decision, and let everything that they do are glorifying Your name! Both of them, Yvonne and Valerie had shown Your love through them Lord, through their personality Lord! All the best in your life sis!! :') And as for the new coordinator, sis Debbie Rosalind, we pray to you that you will be granted the wisdom in decision-making, and be guided by the Holy Spirit in coordinating the ministry. We, the newly appointed leaders, Wenceslaus, Me, Yvette, Jessie, Conny, Clarinesisca, Gabrielle and Geraldine, will try our best in supporting, in keeping the growth of this ministry at its best! I pray to Jesus Christ, our Saviour, that we will be able to do what our "ancestors" did before, so that this ministry will survive until the end. For it is God that chose us, not us that chooses Him. We are well aware and believe that every persona in our ministry are called for a mission! Yes! We believe that Lord, for the glory of Your name! Take control of our lives Lord, for it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me (Gal 2:20)! Lord help us to be a good leader, help us to be able to spread the Good News to our brothers and sisters in Christ, help us to serve You, help us to be worthy to be your disciple! All this we ask and pray through Your Son's most holy and precious name, Jesus Christ, who lives and reign together with You, together with the Holy Spirit, forever and ever, AMEN! :)

Can't believe I re-blogged! :O

안녕! Hehe~ Siou trip kuria2 dlu.. kekeke! Well, I am shocked seeing myself typing the keyboard to compose a blog! Yes! A blog! Can you believe that? I haven't do blog in two years but suddenly I blog! Hmmm~ I think I know why I re-blog. That's because I really wanted to acknowledge God's love through Jesus Christ who died on the cross for us. ER2012 really made a "crater" in my heart, what I mean is that, the "crater" made my super impact. Haha. Yes I know, craps. Btw, yeah. I really can feel God's love ni through the ER2012 conference and concert. Truly, there is none like Jesus Christ! The theme for this year's ER is Called, Mission, Sent. The word mission makes me wonder, If God, *no if actually, I know very well that God chose me for a mission*, really called me on a mission, what mission I am assigned to? Throughout the whole ER2012 conference, I was wondering what my calling be like. You see, I didn't get any vision, or any sign regarding my calling. Actually I am a bit disappointed and sad because my friend said he had a vision. Huhu~ Why I didn't have one? I don't know. Until now, I really do not know what my mission is all about. Is it to be a priest, missionary or what? But soon after, I think very deeply. There is one session of the conference bah, Fr. John Chia's if I'm not mistaken. On the presentation slide kan, I terbaca, that God will give you a enthusiasm or a thing that you like doing in according of the mission He assigned someone to. Come to think of that, I realised that I do love charity work, travelling, and listen's to others' problems. So, is it what am I thinking? Hehe! Nvm2, time will reveal it! I just have to keep believing! :D Next, how to know if Holy Spirit really came down on u ah? During the concert that day, Bro Jude Antoine's session, I can sensed that some peoples really having Holy Spirit came down upon them. But when it comes to me, I just wept and cry, a normal cry. Huhuhu~ Did Holy Spirit not come for me? :( Well, only God knows, and He ask me to believe Him, so I will follow! :) But kan, something happened to me today. A friend I just knew from ER2012 share dia pnya problem to me. The person was worrying about something great and we texted and the person really shared what's kacau-ing the person mind. Quite shocked la me coz baru kenal ba, then the person ask me for opinion. Amazed, I think this is God's sign for me this! I am happy o! Really, maybe God want me to help others who are in vain, broken, sad and lost! Weeee~! I am soooo happy you know! Although it is just my assumption, but I really believe this! Hohohohohohohohoho!! Thank God for using me as You will! :) Bah, that's all bah I want to share this. Coz I feel blessed ni dapat help others to find their way back to our Daddy God! Hehehe! Bah, Good night people! God bless we all abundantly with peace! :) Today's daily reading! John 17:1-11 "This is eternal life, that they know the Father the only true God"

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Eee~ lama suda sy nda update ohh kan... Malas suda sy... Huhuhuhuhuh....

Sory Mr.Bloggie... I didn't update u for so long already... Huhuhu.. What to do lar... My life as sucks as a crap! Hehehehehe!

My life is so...B.O.R.I.N.G~?

My life is obviously, B.O.R.I.N.G...

I listed out my daily routine di bawahh... Pandai2 lah kamu judge, boring atau tidak.. heheheh~

My daily routines are shown by the following equation..

Sleep + Eat + Kerja + Kerja + Kerja = Boring + Penat x[Stress + Boring]

Conclusion is, BORING~!! GRRRRRR~!!!!

Nothing else to do already!! Work work work...Mau enjoy pun susah.. Hehehehe~~

Nda pa la.. Sy xda hak mau merungut, sy kerja utk future sy ba.. Mau urus further studies lagi.. Nda pa, sy tahan saja la... Huhuhu...

SOMEONE! PLEASE BRING ME GO JALAN2 ANYWHERE EHH~~!!

Haiyerr... So boredd... Huhuhhu.. A day is not enough.. I want to enjoy and relax for whole weeks, if possible! XD

Hmmm~ I hope this coming 12th-15th April i can take cuti to go to Labuan... Huhuhu~

To be honest, really really honest, i never went to LABUAN, even ONCE!!

Wakakakaka~ Naik ferry pun inda pernah... Haizz.. See, my life.. BORING.. Suckss.. ARGHHH~~

Walao ehh... Loco liao me.. xD

And my sister will be back to Sabah this 15th April from labuan.. Hahaha~

Bha, sepa mau kirim choc, sila maklumkan kepada sy dinombor yg tertera di bawah...

014-6*06823...

Hwhahahaha~

Sepa mau bawa jalan also can inform me.. Hehe~!!!!